I can admit it, I am addicted. But unlike the typical addict, my drug of choice is video games. I have become addicted to finding great games, amazing deals, and crazy stories to go along with the buzz of an amazing score. You might ask why video games, but you will then come to see that it is so much more than video games. I derive great joy from finding and consuming countless different things from video games, to comics, to action figures and more and all of this has spawned from my addiction to shopping. Stepping back and viewing my actions from a distance I can see that it was always a matter of shopping and spending more than anything else, and I suppose this might have begun long ago when i was very young and every weekend my mother would “drag” my sister and I along with her to the mall. Since those frequent mall trips when I was very young exposed me to so many things I wanted, and my mother never bought me all the things i longed for, save for special occasions, I have now become this person that wishes to do what they could not do as a child. What I have been doing for quite some time now is spend and buy all the things i could never have as a kid. I’ve been reconnecting with things first rather than memories and that has put me into this cycle of buying more and more and not truly enjoying and putting to use the items that I get. I suppose there are many factors as to why I have become this type of “have it all” collector, but what needs to be done now is to form a plan of action to counteract my current mindset. I don’t need all of something, I don’t need a complete set, I WANT these things and I need to stop allowing my wanting to supersede my logic. Am I ever going to completely stop shopping or collecting? Probably not. Should I try to be more responsible in my decision making when it comes to shopping? 100% YES! It’s not a bad thing to shop or collect something, but it gets to be bad when you let it overload you, take over and consume your being. Maybe I should take some queues from my friends and begin to look objectively at what I have, what I truly enjoy, and take steps towards downsizing and focusing the scope of my collecting habits. No more buying something just because I don’t have it. No more trying to spend every single dollar I have to feed my habits (well I’ll have to work on that in time). I need to take some time, reflect on how I’ve been acting and look at what I have really amassed, and seriously consider reducing and sell off parts of my collection.
Let me know if any of this resonates with you and your experience, no matter what your addiction is. Of course I can’t talk for anything serious, but to me this is absolutely serious and requires some acknowledgement. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not sad about this situation and I definitely am not hating on collecting, but instead I’m trying to point out that the reason one collects can lose all meaning and sometimes you just have to step back and look at how you’ve been acting and how you’ve been spending.